Sunday, November 29, 2009

joyful & broken hearted

As things have finally slowed down here, I've actually had time to reflect and process all that happened for these kids at the Art Camp last week. Two words keep coming up in my mind, joyful & broken-hearted (I guess that's technically 3 words.) Kids came alive last week when they were given the chance to completely be themselves...to laugh...to play...to sing...to dance. Kids who I've never even seen smile I watched run and laugh. I watched parts of their hearts being healed through expressing themselves, I feel like I don't even have words for what God did in them last week. It was so fair for them, so necessary for their young lives that have already been through so much. There was so much joy in their eyes.

I have a tough time just letting them walk right back into the situations they have no choice but to live in. I know I can't control that, and this is where I have to put my complete trust in what God is doing in them. I have to believe his love is transforming them. I have to believe that
such a medicine is love. Part of me has joy right now, part of me feels broken-hearted. I'm not quite sure how that's possible at the same time, but I feel like all I can do is let God pick up the pieces of my heart that love these kids more than I ever thought possible.

Thursday, November 26, 2009

Much to be thankful for

As I sit here in Guatemala and think about this American holiday that's happening today, it makes me realize even more just how much we have to be thankful for, EVERYDAY. Today especially I am thankful for the opportunity these kids have had this week at the Arts Camp. It has changed them, healed parts of their hearts, and given them the opportunity to come alive again, and it's amazing and honoring to be a part of.

Monday, November 2, 2009

at times...

At times my pace is slower than usual,
other times I feel like I'll never catch up with what I need to.
At times I feel like what I give is enough,
other times I feel like I could never do enough for the suffering here.
At times I feel the need to understand the way God is working,
other times I fully know that I will never be able to wrap my mind around the fullness of Him.
At times I just want life to be easy and comfortable,
other times I realize the hardships we go through ultimately teach us very necessary lessons.

This morning we as a household took some time and talked about what it really means to suffer for Christ. What is looks like for us personally where we're at in life right now, as well as what it looks like for those that we love on every day in La Limonada. It was a very needed reminder for me of why God has called us here at this time...

1 peter 3:17
"It is better, if it is God's will, to suffer for doing good than for doing evil."

romans 8:18
"I consider that our present sufferings are not worth comparing with the glory that will be revealed in us."

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

the excitement of a new season...

Greetings from Guatemala!

Wow, I really can't believe it's the middle of October already! In the states I know it's fall with pumpkins, cooler weather, leaves changing, the smell of campfires in the air, and the excitement of a new season coming on. I can say that I feel that here, the excitement of a new season coming on, just with Central American weather instead of cooler weather, and YES I do miss fall in the states. :)

The summer months brought many teams from many different places, which meant many new friends, and many awesome hearts pouring into the children and community of La Limonada. Hosting teams has been such an awesome privilege to serve alongside those who are willing to sacrifice their time, comfort, and finances and give everything they've got for the time they're here. I fully know the feeling of having your heart broken for La Limonada and leaving a BIG part of yourself here. It happened to me almost exactly 5 years ago on my first short-term missions trip here.

With the teams slowing down a bit now in these months, it has given me more time to focus on the Child Sponsorship program that I'm in charge of here in Guatemala. I've spent the last 8 months getting that up and running while updating sponsors with what's going on with their child, through recent photos and prayer needs. With over 350 children between both of our schools in La Limonada it's proven to be a BIG job! I can't say enough just how much it means to these children to know that someone cares about them, is praying for them, and takes the time to write to them. It gives them hope, when so many of them live in what feels like hopeless situations at times.

When the decision to come back here in the beginning of 2009 was made, I really felt pulled to commit to at least a year in being here, with an open-ended ticket. As the end of the year is approaching, I have been spending much time praying and seeking guidance about where God wants me, and when he wants me there. I do feel like there will be a time to be back in the states to continue to be the main contact liaison for Child Sponsorship, as well as raise awareness in various outlets for the work being done here in La Limonada. I also believe it's important to be able to pour into my relationship with Doug first hand as we're moving forward. Being long distance for this long has been a big challenge, but it has allowed us to grow in ways we might not have seen such a need for, and given us the opportunity to depend on God even more for the strength and base of our relationship. Thank goodness for Skype! :)

At this point I have enough support to be here until the end of January, and I am so blown away and thankful that a full year has been provided for. Your generosity and sacrifice for seeing the value of the work God is doing here in La Limonada, that I am so privileged to be a part of, is something that I am eternally grateful for. I will be going back to the states for the month of December to see family and friends and spend some time refreshing before I come back to Guatemala in the beginning of January. After that at this point, I don't have a return date to the states. I can not tell you how much I appreciate your prayers and encouragement and if supporting me financially as well is something you would like to consider, you can do that in the following way on our secure Lemonade donation page:

https://app.etapestry.com/hosted/LemonadeInternational/OnlineDonation.html
Under the "Fund" button you can select
"Support a team member" and then click on my name.

For those who are supporting me monthly and would consider to do so even after the year commitment so I can continue this work, know that I am deeply grateful. Above any financial donations, your prayers are THE most important thing and I am SO thankful for you. I continue to believe that God will provide for the work that he has called me to. I can't begin to go into the depths of what God is doing here through email, so I hope to one day talk to you about it in person! When I have the time I am continuing to update my blog as well as the Lemonade blog with recent stories and photos, sort of like a living newsletter. Check back for updates!
http://www.lemonadeinternational.org/blog/

Thank you for your love, support, prayers and encouragement. It means so much!

Such a medicine is Love,
Leah

Monday, October 5, 2009

some time with mi madre...

My mom has now been here for a week and today is her birthday actually! (I won't tell you how old she is. ;) I know that this time has been so purposeful for both of us...

Here are a few pictures from the the volcano "Pacaya" that we all hiked together on Saturday.


Wednesday, September 30, 2009

Grateful...

Sometimes I feel like God allows really big things to be put on my heart that I need to pray for, and I think that's a very necessary thing, to dream BIG. But in dreaming big, sometimes I forget to pray for what seems like little things, even though they're not little, they're just different. 2 things lately have reminded me that God gives such great gifts exactly when He knows we need them...

For a few years I've been having lower back pain, sometimes it's bearable, sometimes I have to grit my teeth just to get through the day, refusing to let back pain stop me from picking up so many children that need to be hugged. Lately, it has gotten pretty severe and while stretching as much as possible and praying for the pain to be eased, nothing seemed to be helping. So a new mattress has been purchased, and while that may usually not seem like a big deal, it has brought much needed relief to my tired body. Good thing we bought the mattress when we did, because that day some type of virus wrecked havoc on my body and I spent 3 straight days in bed in extreme pain. I joked with Tita, that if I was going to die, at least it would be on a comfortable mattress. :)


Before I left to come here last January I was able to get my teeth cleaned only to find out I had 4 cavities that needed to be filled, costing over $1,000 that I just could not afford. My dentist kept encouraging me to come back to get them filled, and I told him, I'm sorry, I just don't have that kind of money right now. Since then, it has crossed my mind a few times and I'll say a short prayer "God it's important for me to keep my body healthy, please provide at some point in one way or another for me to get this taken care of." The other day for some reason Tita and I were talking about our teeth and I mentioned that and she told me "Oh, there's a dentist coming to work with us in 2 weeks, and I'm going to tell him that you're going to be the first person to get their teeth worked on, and not only is it not $1,000, it's FREE!" I had to laugh at how God provides in ways I would have never thought...

The part I was most excited about though was telling the woman on the street Julia (a few posts below) that she can now get her rotten teeth pulled because the dentist she asked for is coming...

Thursday, September 24, 2009

Mi Mama!

My mom is coming here to visit on Monday for 2 weeks and I'm super excited!!! I'm a bit nervous for her since this is her first time traveling out of the country alone, but I gave her as much info as I could about everything that she needs to do to go through customs etc. so I'm assuming everything will go smoothly. At least that's what I'm praying for! :)

I'm very thankful that we'll have this time together and I think it'll be really good for her to jump into life here with us for those 2 weeks. There's always something to do in the household as well and I know she really enjoys helping. Kids to play with, dogs to pet, walks to take...all things I know she enjoys. I have to remember to take a break and sloooooooooooow down and really soak in this time with her.

I'm going to try to take a few days off so we can do some things together like Antigua and Pana Jachel, but the thing I'm most excited about is the fact that she gets to see and be a part of the work God is doing in La Limonada. Keep her in your prayers and I'll make sure to post some pictures when she's here!